Lesser Blood

His sweat was, as it were,

great drops of blood falling down upon the ground. 

Luke 22:44

Lesser blood.  That was my first thought.  I am not proud of that, just saying.

I was secluded in the lady’s restroom at the hospital where my son was awaiting a diagnosis about a pain in his side.  The doctor was thinking this was an appendix thing and ordered a test to confirm that and we were waiting for the results.  The doctor was sure the tests would confirm their initial suspicions and began talking about surgery to remove his appendix. My husband was praying that God would guide the hand of the surgeon and John was whispering to me that he didn’t want surgery and fighting back tears.  I was praying that God would just heal John now and spare him the pain of surgery. He had done that for John once before and I knew He could again.  But for some reason I just didn’t have peace about that.

I needed peace.   Not just peace and quiet which is sometimes hard to find in a hospital, but I wanted God’s peace.  I wanted to know how to pray for John.  Do I pray for healing to spare him the surgery or like my husband, do I pray that God guides the surgeon’s hand and speed his healing afterward?

I have to admit, again I am not proud of this, that when considering healing, I thought of healing through the surgery and beyond as a lesser healing than a healing that would spare him the surgery.  Maybe that’s why God showed me what I called a lesser blood.

When I was praying God showed me a drop of Jesus’ blood. A drop shed in the Garden of Gethsemane. One drop of blood from Jesus’ brow. That’s the blood I thought of as lesser.  I saw it as pre-crucifixion blood and therefore, somehow, lesser.  I told you I wasn’t proud of this.

But then I saw that drop of blood land on John’s head and expand slowly and spread out. The blood continued to spread and expand until it covered him from the top of his head to the tip of his toes – like a blanket. I stood there amazed at what I had just seen.  My son covered in the blood of Jesus – the “lesser blood” – the pre-crucifixion blood. That vision gave me peace, amazing peace.  One drop of Jesus’ blood was sufficient to blanket my son!

I still didn’t know what path this healing would take but I knew my son was covered by God’s love and protection and either way, His grace would be sufficient for all of us.  I left the seclusion of the ladies’ room and returned to the emergency room to find that the tests revealed an inflamed appendix and surgery was scheduled for the next morning.

While that vision gave me tremendous peace, it also left me with questions.

Why did God show me that blood?

Why not the blood from the nails in his hands?

Or his feet?

Why not show me the blood from his side when He was pierced there?

Why this blood shed in the Garden of Gethsemane?

I prayed for understanding and here’s why I think God showed me that blood. It was in the Garden of Gethsemane that Jesus surrendered to His Father’s will. While He had always done His Father’s will, doing His Father’s will had not, up to this point, required that He shed His blood or that He experience separation from His Father – a separation brought about by His willingness to take our sins upon Himself – the sins that kept us from God would also keep Jesus from His Father, at least for a time.

Jesus surrendered to His Father’s will in the Garden of Gethsemane.  It wasn’t easy nor was His surrender a foregone conclusion. Surrender brought agony – so much so that He sweat blood.

He didn’t sweat blood on the cross.


Because, perhaps, the harder part of carrying out His Father’s will was the surrender.

And that took place in the garden.

My surrender took place in the ladies’ restroom.

I would rather my son had been spared surgery.  But I didn’t have peace about praying that way.  I didn’t have peace at all until I saw that blood dripping down my son’s face.  That was when I surrendered.  I gave up wanting my outcome and accepted that God knows best and I surrendered to His plan – however it would play out.

And that was when I experienced peace. Incredible peace.

Peace comes after the surrendering of my will, not before.

John had the surgery and recovery has gone well. I am grateful for the healing power of Jesus, the steady and sure hands of the surgeon, the compassionate care of the nurses and the blood of Jesus that covers my son then and now. I am grateful for the peace that surpasses all understanding. And I am grateful for understanding when I am granted that.

Father, forgive me for thinking that healing has to follow my plan and purposes.  Thank You for showing me how much You love me and my son, so much so that when Jesus asked for Your will to be accomplished in a different way, You said no. No to Your precious Son so that You could say yes to me and my precious son.  Thank You for healing my son. and allowing me to experience Your peace that comes after surrender, in Jesus’s name, amen.

I would love to hear from you. Please let me know if I can be praying for you as well.

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3 thoughts on “Lesser Blood

  1. Diane, in praying for Jerry’s healing, we both have been flooded with God’s peace. Even in my times of distress as I think of what we may have to go through with the natural progression of cancer, deep down, I still feel God’s peace.

    Even before Jerry got sick, we, for years, have felt that God wants to do something through us as a couple. We were late getting married, and, as we were very different, it’s taken years for us to really bond. We both feel that, all this time, God has been preparing us—then, this! However, I believe God is strengthening our faith through this very difficult trial in order for us to have great faith to believe for what He has in mind for us to do in the future for His Kingdom.

    He told me six years ago that we would be going through a difficult time…that our path would get rocky and uphill, but that when it gets the toughest, we’re almost there. He was referring to a dream He gave me in 1997—really a series of dreams and visions and knowings.

    But, He has also showed me that Jerry would kick this. I have to think of the various confirmations He has given me when I get to thinking the wrong things. One was, He reminded me of the Book of Esther, wherein sure doom and destruction was totally turned around by divine intervention to good, protection, victory, and blessing.

    God help me to remember this when I get down about the circumstances. My God is greater than the circumstances! We are not to look at the physical but what God says about a situation.

    By Jesus’ stripes Jerry is HEALED!


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    1. It is good to hear from you Cindy. I do understand the tension at times of waiting on a promise to be fulfilled and maintain a hopeful, trusting place of rest with God. I have been waiting on a healing God promised me over 22 years ago and yet… thank you for sharing this and the reminder from the book of Esther. It’s not over until He says it’s over!

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